Distance

My love story began 04.04.09. Two years later, it was over. He was my everything. He was my lover, my bestfriend...my heart. Atleast 8 months has now gone by since we went our seperate ways, and I'm still coping with all the changes.

We tried to stay away, but it didn't work. Our connection/bond was too strong for us to deny.  We even tried getting back together. He says he tried and I'm sure in some ways he did, but the setup and/or timing was all wrong for both parties. We tried to remain friends, but I couldn't do it because I can't just be a friend to someone that I'm madly and deeply in love with [It would be to painful to hear about other females]. Now I've convinced him to try distance. [SMH. What was I thinking?] I'll admit I'm afraid and hurt, but I know this will help us both in the end. It may not help us get back together, but I think it will help us grow a little.

I've been depressed ever since our break up. Some days are better than others, but lately it has only gotten worse. I know it's good to talk about things, but I can't really talk about my situation with my family and friends. And now that there is distance between us, I know I won't hear or see much from him, so I won't be able to turn to him as much. So, I've decided to create this blog as a means for me to vent, as well as, a way to reach out and share my thoughts and feelings with him. I doubt he'll ever take the time to find or read this blog, but it's worth a shot. I really hope this blog will help atleast one of us.